Thursday, 5 November 2009

The urge to apologize

Why do I feel scared when I get happy?

Why do I think my actions would upset someone?

Why do I feel guilty for having done well in what I have?

Why do I feel like I owe an explanation for doing better?

Why do I feel anything I do will inconvenience someone?

Why do I have the urge to apologize for the achievements in my life?

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Thursday, 3 September 2009

I’m back

Hello the world of blogging. It has been a long time since I last posted on my blog. There are a lot of contributing factors to this but I'll say the biggest was me joining twitter. Somehow tweeting about the thoughts in my mind and event in my life has been reduced to 140 characters.. Tweeting has become a somewhat easy and lazy substitute to blogging. I don't condemn tweeting but I do miss blogging. Having said that, I am back to my original love of blogging. I am going to try my best to be fairly regular with my posts and will appreciate all comments and feedback!

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Thursday, 11 June 2009

Fickle minded....and hearted??

We have often heard about how one is freckle minded. The phase implying that the said person is not decisive and usually has a difficult time sticking to a single decision.

Today I watched a Hindi movie, Dil Kabbadi. It is a movie which would be classified as Art Cinema or parallel cinema or real cinema. The essence of the movie title and the story boils down to the concept of having a "fickle heart", the new villain to love stories...

Gone are the days (mostly) when parents and society stood against the love of the young. Today falling in love is no longer frowned upon. Parents are accepting and so is society. The problem now is in the process of falling in love. Apparently if you think you are in love chances are you would be falling out of it sooner or later. Lucky if you fall out before the marriage, unlucky if it is after the marriage. Or is it? Is the process of falling in and out of love as simple as changing clothes or shoes or mobile phones?

How then can we ensure that the falling in love we are experiencing is the real thing, the final change or the perfect mobile phone? When do we stop thinking there is someone better, more handsome, more understanding, more worthy and the list goes on.. How do we know the flutter in the stomach and the racing of the heart is for life and not going to stop dead when we wake up tomorrow?

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Tin Fish by Sudeep Chakravarti

Date completed reading: 11th June 2009
Book gotten from: Indian Writers' Festival
Rating: 5/6
My 2-cents worth: Amazing book about the coming of age. A very frank narration in real language including a barrage of profanity in almost every sentence. What made reading the book really special for me was the setting of the story. The story is set in Mayo College in Ajmer. Ajmer is my birth town and I have always wanted to go to Mayo College's sister school, Mayo Girls. Reading about farmiliar places in Ajmer was like watching a film in my head with real places. A good read but you have to be ready to tune out the "language"..

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Sunday, 17 May 2009

Thoughts in my head

So many thought in my head fighting to be expressed

Unsure I remain as to act upon them fearing the consequences

Who will they hurt?

Which can of worms will they open?

Call me selfish, call me evil

For I don't want to get hurt more

Enough pain I have had, i need no more

Yet I seek no revenge..

Though i have never felt a stronger urge to use profanities to express myself

I feel i have lost myself in a black hole, emotionally and mentally

What have i done to get this upon myself?

I had the perfect plan which crashed and burned along the way

Leaving me in the dark hole I am in






Saturday, 11 April 2009

Uproar over movies

Recently there was an article in the news about how chick flicks are degrading the female population by a negative and weak portrayal of female characters. This came on the heels of the numerous criticisms about Slumdog Millionaire. I find both these issues stem from a single phenomenon; movie audiences today have lost the sense of reality in entertainment. I mean what is so wrong about showing the reality of some women who do indeed have shopping obsessions or those who desperately cling onto a man to feel complete? Also have the rich Indians today forgotten the slums that line the perimeter of their booming metropolitan city and the slum dwellers who exit side by side with them? It is very convenient to close our eyes and say these females or these slum dwellers don't exist and the movies are unfair portrayal of the "truth" in an effort to disgrace the female population or India.

I have seen 3 chick flicks in the last 2 months; He's just not that into you, Confessions of a shopaholic and Bride Wars. I am also a diehard fan of Mean girls and White Chicks. Does that mean I am on the side of the chauvinistic males who rule society and females alike? Not at all! In fact there are a lot of movies that portray men as the chauvinistic male pigs who couldn't give 2 hoots about using a woman's body and walking away. Now does that mean that is the typical man in the world? I certainly hope not. This man is just 1 of the many kinds of men who inhibit the world. So why then the uproar over the true portrayal of the "weaker" kinds of females?

The same goes for Slumdog Millionaire. The irony over the issue here is much larger since the majority of Indians live below the poverty line. Mumbai aka Bombay has the largest slums and a large, thriving slum dwelling population. How do you expect to deny this fact? What is so wrong with showing this to the world? In fact I applaud the movie for showing how a slum boy aka slumdog rose up in society to become a millionaire. Isn't that something to be proud of? Such stories though not the norm are a true fact of the Indian landscape. Stories of boys and girls coming to the big city with nothing more than dreams of making it big. These same people have gone to achieve amazing things. Indian should be proud to have such resilient citizens who dare to dream and dare to achieve those dreams despite such odds.

I enjoy chick flicks for the humour and the madness of the characters. I even use them as a reminder for myself to not lose my self-confidence and identity as a woman. I have certainly not ran amok after watching "He's just not that into you" looking for the perfect guy and then stalking him all in the hopes of falling in love with Mr. Impossible. Movies are made for entertainment but they usually are based on some kind of reality. This reality may not be the most predominant one but that doesn't take away from the fact that it is still reality.

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Featured in the newspaper

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Lamhe- SMU Arts Festival 2009

This article appeared in the SMU magazine..
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Sunday, 5 April 2009

8 X 10 Tasveer

Date Watched: 4th April 2009
Venue Watched: Jade
Watched With: Mummy
Rating: 5/6
My 2-cents worth: The movie is really engaging and the suspense very thrilling. However the end part and the explanation for the murderer's motives are weak. These flaws hurt the effectiveness of the story as a whole. However the movie is enjoyable and fun to watch if you like to be thrilled.

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Saturday, 4 April 2009

Confessions of a Shopaholic


Date Watched: 2nd April 2009
Venue Watched: GV Plaza Singapura
Watched With: Shaffalika
Rating: 5/6
My 2-cents worth: I love the movie! I can relate to the craze of shopping but can also distance myself from the magic of the plastic money. The story is fun, flirty and very real. I love the colours, the clothes, the gliz and the glamour. At the same time I love how the movie is real dispite what the feminst are saying about chick flicks.

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